an insomniac's train of thought

Why is there a universe? 
Should I pay off my debt with my line of credit?
Do I have anything that I can sell? 
If I fall asleep right now I will get five hours of sleep. 

Have I wasted the last twenty years of my life?

Don't buy coffee and toilet paper at the same store, 

It's embarrassing when you get to the checkout. 

If I fall asleep right now I will get four hours of sleep. 

My parents are getting older.
Should I pay off my debt with my RRSPs? 
Meditation retreat or a trip to Bulgaria? 
If I fall asleep right now I will get three hours of sleep.

I really need to start lifting weights.

Should I move back to Nova Scotia?

What was the name of that actress from that show?

If I fall asleep right now I will get two hours of sleep.

I either need to do my laundry tomorrow or buy new underwear.
I have to go to the bathroom again.
I'm almost 50.
What was the name of my third grade teacher?

It's time to get up.

two houseflies

two houseflies make love
on a sunny afternoon
no inhibitions.

thoughts on winter

The Danish word Hygge has no English equivalent but is defined as 'a concept, originating in Denmark, of creating a cosy and convivial atmosphere that promotes well-being." I am actually surprised that Canadians don't have a similar word, for like the Danes, we have to deal with long, cold winters with less daylight hours. As a coffee-drinking, introverted book reader who is not good at any outdoor sports (or indoor ones) I enjoy Winter quite a bit. I don't love it, but I definitely prefer it to summer in Toronto, where the humidity and smog reach such high levels that people with breathing issues can't leave their homes, and even going for a short walk will leave you in a pool of sweat.

I have a theory also (I have many theories) that there is more creative work done when the weather is miserable, as there is less temptation to go outdoors. I have nothing to back this up other than my own experience as a musician and writer, but I like to think of the number of authors and poets that have come from England as possible evidence.

friend of Charles Dickens: "would you like to go for a nice long walk tomorrow?"

Charles Dickens: "that sounds nice. what is the forecast?"

friend of Charles Dickens: "cold and damp with heavy rainfall."

Charles Dickens:"hmmm...maybe I will stay in and try to finish up this novel."

And so to all the outdoor sport-loving, book-hating extroverts I say take heart, Spring will be here before you know it. Reclusive, uncoordinated bibliophiles: it's OUR time now.